Threshold of 2K7 and 2K8

This year has taught me so many things in life as HIS son, a student, a son to my parents, a friend, an enemy, a stranger and the like. It only means that i've learned all this year. Many sad moments but still I could have managed to grin. As I've remember, I celebrated my new year of 2007 alone at our house due to the fact of conflicts and my "pride". I don't know. For all the could'ves' and should'ves', there's no regrets. It's just like how can i regret something didn't happen. But I know, that I can do better this year in different aspects of my life. I will be more dedicated on my studies and leisure pursuits, strive for my goals, be more religious and to become a good person albeit it's hard. But I will try. Next time I'll do my blog, I'll make a long manifesto...that's all for now...I don't have much time.Happy new year to everyone!Be good and God Bless!Ü

Busy mode eh...

ayon...


by next time...


i'll post new blogs and the like...


i'm much busy these days...

Yuletide Season

It's the 17th day of December, 3:14 in the afternoon and I don't know what's in this day. I just don't know, why?I don't care. As Gibo said, "Something's wrong wit' me?", which is true to me.

Something's also wrong about me. I want to decipher the wrong things, I had but I just don't know how to make it right. Eight days are left before Christmas. One thing I'm avoiding to pass by, which is inevitable.Oh! my goodness...

Someone there?Somebody?Hey, I don't know. I need someone who may listen to my sentiments in this damn life.

If someone will be able to read this, email me, so tired, something's wrong 'bout me...
I need a break, I need a shoulder, I need someone to make me grin.

unheeded_being...

Another Pace in my Life

The Official Literary Folio of The Bastion

Singkaw, is the title of this magnificent lit.folio.

This will be distributed on Monday, December 9, 2007 at the Publication Office, College of Law Bldg.

Certificate of Registration is very much needed.

This not the end of my master pieces, this is but the start of my eyes and wings flying with the magic carpet of Aladin and with my princess...

****the COVER DESIGN of this folio which I laid out with passion[haha] has won 6th place during the 7th Luzonwide Higher Education Press Congress held at Tuguegarao. It was participated by different State Universities and Colleges from different corners of Luzon.

At the Football Field

This photo is taken by Christopher G. Bersales, Jr. at the football field. We're supposed to watch a football game but eventually we've end up in a discourse.That is Paola, me and Jayson.

Happy!

I can't explain why I'm happy this day. I guess it's just a part of my enlightened attitude now.[hehe]

Sooner, I'll be able to find my 'never-found treasure'...

What else???

Hmmm...


I'm happy, that's it...

It's in it???what else???

Late in the afternoon, I looked up the sky then I saw this 'thing'. Somehow incapable of showing itself. I can't decipher it. I reckon it's just showing 'its' inflexibility to us...

My Own Personality Theory [Psychological Perspective]

PSYCHOSUPERIOLOGY

Proposed by: Mark Jay E. Buenaventura

“The greatest motivating factor of all is the fact that you do not want to become inferior anymore.”

Preface

Personally, I was greatly influenced by many other theories. I definitely agreed with Freud’s Psychoanalytic Theory of repression of the biological motives in the unconscious and might develop anxiety to the individuals’ personality. Also with the three components of the personality: the id (pleasure), ego (reality), and the superego (morality principle). The three divisions of the human psyche which is the consciousness, subconscious and the unconscious which is the vast or biggest region among the three. With Jung’s Analytical Theory which assess individuals as introvert and extrovert because of the environmental implications, and with Horney’s Feminine Psychology focuses on the love and affection receive by the individual from the significant others during the development. Lastly is Erikson’s Psychosocial Theory of Personality by which I relate my personal ideology and endeavors of my development from the conception until now.

I strongly believed that every individual can develop their own theory. As they have said, how human behaves in a certain ways is very difficult to study, its etiology and the like. If and only if, those individuals or every person can formulate and develop their own theory, they can enhance or develop their personality and can accurately anticipate future events. If they will have their own theory, they can give meaning to their personal experiences. Perhaps, if every individual has its own theory, we can have somehow an ease to understand and study human behavior because of these references.

Etiologically, human personality is the combined structures of fixed features (heredity) and fixed feature uploading which is primarily the parenting process and the extrinsic influences by significant others and the environment. Personality is varying situation-ally. The past can definitely determine or predict the future – situational.

Kyrajamesque: My View and Manner of Human Nature

As the conception of individual, it primarily involves competition. Apparently, it is survival of the fittest, removal of the unfit in the so-called psychosuperior traits. In which, the sperm cells managed to go through the egg cell to declare as the strongest of them all.

Life is a competition, whether we win or more time we lost. We are not perfect and nobody is, but we can always strive for excellence and perfection.

I am a person having a gloomy past. Self-pity, lack of encouragement, support and guidance are my primary inferiority traits. I went through this life achieving my crest. Even until now I am doing it. One of my motivating factors is self-glorifying or narcissism they say. But this is my only way not to descend in that gloomy and yet melancholic past. As I have said, “The greatest motivating factor of all is the fact that I do not want to become inferior anymore.” This quotation I have made for myself that I definitely practicing it in different aspects of my life.

Inside the houses, the classrooms, the schools and outside of those are having full competition in many respects. In Reality sake, you are hypocrite if you want to be down, to be inferior and not to strive for psychosuperiority. For some, it may be the “the contentment of all you have” but for most, contentment of what you have can never be the contentment of your Becoming.

Psychosuperiology

This is the study and the process of how an individual reach the psychosuperiority in his stages of development in different aspects. It is also the study of the behavior of the individual having been or being a psychosuperior being. Reaching a goal is never been easy; it is like you are hunting a shark in the forest. By that, psychosuperiority can be done in some little ways. For example, if a child (6-year old) saw a trash on the ground and he did not even try to pick to throw it to the garbage, that is one simple way of psychoinferiority (attitudinal/morality aspects). But if a child (6-year old) saw the same and he do it in a righteous way or he pick and throw the trash in the trashcan, which is a sense and one simple way of being psychosuperior.

Psychosuperiological Development [in one sense]

v Prenatal (conception to birth) – managing a single sperm to went through the ovary to meet the egg cell to fertilized.

v Infancy (birth – end of 2^nd Week) – overcoming the hazardous period.

v Babyhood (end of 2^nd Week – end of 2^nd Year) – establishing a firm foundation of a child in all aspects.

v Early Childhood (2 – 6 years old) – extending a rapport between people of some age and of not.

v Late Childhood (6 – 10 or 12) – achieving awards, citations, recognitions and the like.

v Pre-adolescence (10 – 12; 13 or 14) – overcoming the pessimistic implications of puberty to the behavior.

v Adolescence (13 or 14 – 18) – self-becoming in many respects and thinking critically.

v Early Adulthood (18 – 35) – maturation to the different endeavors.

v Middle Adulthood (35 – 65) – self-understanding and self-calming; deeper perspective.

v Senescence (65 to Death) – self-acceptance for self-actualization.

After an individual assess himself, assuming that he arrive those at the psychosuperiological development, he will live and die as psychosuperior in one sense of personality and of life.

Psychoinferiological Development

“The greatest hazard of all, losing one’s self, can occur very quietly in the world, as if it were nothing at all. No other loss can occur so quietly; any other loss, an arm, a leg, twenty pesos, a wife, etcetera is sure to be noticed.”

The other way around but it is focus on the etiology of having the characteristics of psychoinferior. In psychosuperiological development, if you did not arrived at the sense of psychosuperiority you will accumulate psychoinferiority as the final trait. A psychoinferior being can develop insecurities, being self- centered, skeptic, culpability, identity crisis, social withdrawal, stagnant and being self-despair.

Two Structural Patterns of Behavior Variations

v Fixed Feature – genetic cause of behavior.

v Fixed Feature Uploading – this is like the parenting, the implications of the extrinsic influences to the individuals’ development and behavior.

Both of the two structural patterns are inseparable. They need to be considered in studying human behavior. However, this must be also considered in the variation of situations.

Hazards: Etiology of Psychoinferiority and other Odd Behavior of Individual [in one sense]

Psychosophysical Hazards

v Unwanted Child; Prematurity and Wrong Implantation

v Name Concept; Infant mortality

v Symbiotic Relationship between Family; Illness

v Sex Role Typing; Unattractiveness

v Intellect; Physical Disabilities

v Unfavorable Self-concept; Late maturer

v Moral and Social Behavior; Body Conscious

v Conformity; Unattractiveness

v Maladjustments in Everything; Loss of physical and sexual vigor

v None-assessment; Deprivation

The past can either make or break the future. Therefore past could possibly determine future. An unwanted child affected psychologically which can develop lots of insecurities, physical, social and the like.

v Obsoleteism – an act of analyzing the past implications of the extrinsic influences among individuals, either positive or negative. It is somehow the root cause of changes in the personality over time which is empirical.

Quoted Defense Mechanism of Psychosuperior as you perceived those against to you…

1. “Easy to break but definitely easier to mend.”

2. “No matter how a man sharpen his pen with an old and unsharpened sharpener, still the point will not be pointed, but as a pen, although unsharpened uses its functions far better than other.”

3. “Why will you sob? Why are you so melancholic? Why are you ashamed? And why you blamed somebody? If the only reason is that they can not reach your crest.”

4. “I am a liver and you are the waste. I have brain so as you. I have the mind so as you, too. But I have it all to understand you.”

5. “Sometimes, the unfairness of reality is very much unfair and the least you can only do is to surpass hardly and leaving the rope to ‘HIM’.”

8 Senses of Psychosuperior Being

1. Sense of Sight

2. Sense of Hearing

3. Sense of Smell

4. Sense of Touch

5. Sense of Taste

6. Sense of Humor

7. Common Sense

8. Psychsense – a sense of having a deeper perspective, view and understanding towards different people in different situations. An open-minded individual.

“I have the need to understand you.”

Consequence of Psychoinferior Being

1. Non-sense – a sense of not being a sensible individual and yet he is characterized of having a distortion of personality in reality. He either recline, deny, project, having an over-covered personality, secretive and too much insecurities which may lead to pessimistic behaviors about him or may interpret by others as such.

Depiction of Non-sense Pessimistic Behaviors

v The Pre-tender – a trait characterized of being pretender in intellectual capabilities and social relationship to be accepted.

v The Dejesterist – a trait of characterized being a joker, vague envious behavior, and yet he is in denial stage of maturities.

v The Saplagiacorist – a trait characterized of a good paradigm of being a person but definitely having a dark-half. Concept crook.

v The Pre-Arbesterist – a trait characterized of being prejudge mental in a jester manner because of feeling insecure or inferior.

v The Rude-Subordinalist – a trait characterized of being a follower of omnipotent being but he is rude.

v The Overmoractorilist – a trait characterized of being a follower also but acts as overacting.

v The Apathist – a trait characterized of having lack of concern with others; playing safe.

v The Raresecrist – a trait characterized of being secretive rare individual and yet to play himself safe.

v The Temperist – a trait characterized of having a personality of a wheel. You will never know where to stop to its random circumference.

v The Raredurist – a trait characterized of having odd behavior yet going with the flow.

v The Weakpasist – a trait characterized of being weak of frustrations because of lack of acceptance and he live with the past.

v The Overglorifist – a trait characterized of being psychosuperior and yet psychoinferior in a sense that it is too much.

Evaluation:

I have experienced some of this I stated above and I have observed in my environment. As of now, I am considering myself as in the PSYCHOSUPERIOR because I am using my simple ways to become psychosuperior. The thing that I can only do that nobody can ever do. That is the least I can do or thinking that I am PSYCHOSUPERIOR.

In a sense, psychosuperior are not totally categorizing you as an authority or omnipotent for somehow. Use your power in a righteous way so that you can help psychoinferior then to achieve the bottom-line of all of these ------ HAPPINESS in COMMUNION with GOD! +_-

©

All rights reserved: 2007

Mark Jay E. Buenaventura

Bachelor of Science in Psychology – II

EQUATION of LOVE

Nash: Thank you. I've always believed in numbers and the equations and logics that lead to reason.

But after a lifetime of such pursuits, I ask,

"What truly is logic?"

"Who decides reason?"

My quest has taken me through the physical, the metaphysical, the delusional -- and back.

And I have made the most important discovery of my career, the most important discovery of my life: It is only in the mysterious equations of love that any logic or reasons can be found.

I'm only here tonight because of you [his wife, Alicia].

You are the reason I am.

You are all my reasons.

Thank you.

its in it...i swear........................................

the next JOHN NASH...hahah

psych aman.......

Magnum Opus

For once, I did it. I’ve already pierced into this. Something ‘is’ left upon the threshold. I want to go back to pick but I opted not to, it’s in it forevermore…I’m just glad, that I’m able to cast my breathes, the breathe of life I always wanted to emit and the certain thing in this streaked. My Life…I’m living with achieving my dreams and I will not perish here unless I’m there!My pneuma and yours will still barge its conduit, I will be yours not mine but you’ll be mine in me!!!